Notes &
the empty space.
There’s this empty space that belongs to God.
Generally, it’s filled with things of my own pleasure.
Nice things. Shiny and colorful. Probably expensive.
When this empty space isn’t so empty, things feel great.
Paying bills. Buying nice food. Spending money on things that’ll eventually turn back into dirt.
You’re a big deal…you make a good bit of change…you’re respected and have a title. For Heaven’s sake, you’re even on a salary!
All of a sudden, things shift and this full place loses a lot of those shiny and colorful bits. Next thing you know, those bills are lookin’ mighty stressful and your things lose value significantly.
This space starts looking awfully bare. You start to notice the cracks in the wall and how creaky the floors really are…
It starts poking at your humanity. “What are you actually good for? Hey! I asked what good are you?”
The world gets scary and you want to be at home, but you’re stuck walking in a heavy downpour.
Lifeboat economics start playing over in your mind…”Yeah…what am I good for?”
I can’t build anything out of wood…or grow food…or fix a car [or person].
However, in the void of this empty space…you remember…”Yeah…this, was God’s..”
You start to remember that your value is not placed in things or money. You aren’t what you do…or what you wear…not even who people think you are.
This space…that you thought was empty, was actually filled with much more than you thought. It was filled with a sense of community…love…and dignity.
You remember again, what it was like to be in Communion with God…
You remember that people are of absolute greatest worth. Every.Single.One.
All of a sudden, things become a bit more brilliant with each glance. A hug feels ten times warmer and a poem breaks your heart in the best ways possible.
Yes. God owns this empty space.
Sensitive, deep and true.
There God is! — silent and fierce. gentle and ferocious.
[and it is, love.]
I am not what I do. I am not what I wear. I am not who people think I am.
I am, though, held and filled with fierce and gentle love.